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Photograph by guest arts editor, Peter Ahn.\u00a0<\/em>
\n You can read about the\u00a0art selection process\u00a0for this piece\u00a0here<\/a>.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Blue Angel of Unctuous Balm<\/strong><\/p>\n

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It’s true that I got my first period at the Freud museum<\/p>\n

It’s terrifying to remember snippets of my young girlhood<\/p>\n

I bled before\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I bled wow<\/p>\n

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Men like Sartre say things like<\/p>\n

Existence precedes essence<\/p>\n

But\u00a0\u00a0 like<\/p>\n

What if you want one and not the other<\/p>\n

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I mean<\/p>\n

I’m not religious<\/p>\n

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I mean<\/p>\n

It’s not like I don’t know<\/p>\n

what to do<\/p>\n

If it gets really bad I’ll just take more<\/p>\n

little blue pills<\/p>\n

Blue like the night and embroidered velvet<\/p>\n

Blue like velvet and the early morning<\/p>\n

Wow I\u2019m high \/<\/p>\n

Etc etc \/<\/p>\n

Whatever don’t @ me<\/p>\n

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*\u00a0 *\u00a0 *<\/p>\n

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Untitled 11\/11\/17<\/strong><\/p>\n

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in a dusty city<\/p>\n

all of my female and<\/p>\n

female identifying ancestors<\/p>\n

gulp down dirty martinis<\/p>\n

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i fear 2 things: death and<\/p>\n

my nuvaring<\/p>\n

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i wouldnt really know how to<\/p>\n

rear a babe<\/p>\n

his tiny lips faltering<\/p>\n

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little motherfucker<\/p>\n

doesnt know how to drink down<\/p>\n

the nouveau-nouveau-riche<\/p>\n

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at last year\u2019s Kentucky Derby<\/p>\n

i mixed all my desires into a<\/p>\n

mint julep<\/p>\n

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now my son rides Horses<\/p>\n

now my son wins Big Money<\/p>\n

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*\u00a0 *\u00a0 *<\/p>\n

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3 Hail Marys I\u2019m Gay<\/strong><\/p>\n

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there is no such thing as a<\/p>\n

perfect hole.<\/p>\n

for a long time i could<\/p>\n

only get off to gay<\/p>\n

porn but<\/p>\n

i have a lot of penance<\/p>\n

to do before i am<\/p>\n

Queer<\/p>\n

when i was a teen<\/p>\n

i loved that Gregg Araki flick<\/p>\n

about aliens and<\/p>\n

this little gay boy and<\/p>\n

The Sheriff<\/p>\n

i<\/p>\n

especially liked the<\/p>\n

statutory rape scene<\/p>\n

with the<\/p>\n

Lucky Charms spilled all<\/p>\n

over the floor it<\/p>\n

\u2018s a smart shot.<\/p>\n

i<\/p>\n

am drooling i<\/p>\n

am leaking<\/p>\n

from every<\/p>\n

orifice<\/p>\n

Blood<\/p>\n

spit and<\/p>\n

some female<\/p>\n

ejaculate<\/p>\n

i<\/p>\n

dreamt<\/p>\n

about you<\/p>\n

in the<\/p>\n

hot tub<\/p>\n

at the<\/p>\n

party<\/p>\n

and let<\/p>\n

me just<\/p>\n

say<\/p>\n

O man<\/p>\n

O god<\/p>\n

O mary<\/p>\n

The \u201cO\u201d that Dana ward<\/p>\n

Writes about ,<\/p>\n

the Bionian O<\/p>\n

Oh<\/p>\n

i renounce<\/p>\n

the arrogance<\/p>\n

of solid<\/p>\n

ground at<\/p>\n

the end of<\/p>\n

the day our<\/p>\n

recalcitrance is<\/p>\n

stupid look \/<\/p>\n

What \/ You\u2019ve \/<\/p>\n

Done<\/p>\n

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*\u00a0 *\u00a0 *<\/p>\n

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fuck everyone who is not a stuffed animal<\/strong><\/p>\n

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yes she is very cool yes she feels as soft as a baby lamb\u2026<\/p>\n

man everyone i\u2019ve dated has been such a stupid disappointment\u2026<\/p>\n

we\u2019re all gonna die so you can stick your greasy finger into as many dumb pies as you want\u2026<\/p>\n

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